It is Wednesday evening and after a busy day at work I am sitting on my patio enjoying the amazing weather. Finished up one of my ongoing, never-ending projects today! YAY! It feels good to be done with it and I am ready to battle the next one. The week in general is panning out ok. I have my moments some up and some down, but I can’t complain. Life wouldn’t be life without them. I have to thank all of you who have reached out to tell me it is going to be ok or that is will get better or just to remind me you are there for me when I need it the most. You all mean so much to me, I am blessed to have such wonderful people in my life.

So one of my new found hobbies (if you could call it that), and aside from blogging, is….working out. Now who would have though. Me…love to work out…ok more of a love hate relationship, but after I drag myself over there I feel a million times better and it is a great way to get out some of the at extra anger and energy. So for the last three days I have been running, lifting weights and stretching every night. It is amazing what a little free time can do for you.

So I am sure some of you are wondering how I am doing with the whole Andrew situation. Well…not great, but getting better. I miss him like crazy and I wish there was a way to get through to him and make him understand that I want to be in this with him. I know he has to do this on his own, but it is hard to understand why he had to give up the one thing he said made him happy. He deserves the world and I hope that one day he will get it. He had an interview with the Spokane Symphony today and cross your finger (mine are) that he gets it. It isn’t a playing position, but I think if he got to be around the thing that brings him the most joy, it could really change his outlook on life. So say a prayer, send good thoughts, and cross your fingers and toes. This could be life changing for him. Wishing you the best handsome!

I don’t know that I have much more to report on or if I have even said a lot, maybe I just rambled. I do have to tell you that it fells nice to get it on paper.

Taking it one day at a time and living with no regrets!

Signing off for now…

Katie Lou

Well it is Monday morning and back to the beginning of a new work week. I have to say that I am looking forward to something to keep my mind occupied. I also will like getting some stuff accomplished and I always feel like I get stuff done at work. Hopefully this will be one of those productive weeks. Aside form that I hope to keep busy and my thoughts on the positive aspects I have going for me in life. I am trying not to think about the last week and the sadness that is hanging in my heart. I know it is normal and all I can say is a miss him a lot. He means so much to me an I feel like I am losing him. I hope that it is only a short time. Keep us in your thoughts once again.

Well off to work and a fresh start…I hope this one is better than the last.

Katie Lou

So once again I am sitting at home on a Sunday night by myself. Well it isn’t the first time and I doubt it will be the last. Life has a way of throwing you some curve balls and this last week has had its far share. I am by no means an expert to how this thing called life is suppose to work and I doubt most people are, but I do believe it doesn’t hand you more than you can handle. I might have been pushed to the limit this last week, but again with doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

As most of you know I have been seeing Andrew for a little over a month and I couldn’t have been happier. He had been a great friend through the years and being his ’sunshine’ was such a blessing. For now we aren’t together as there are some things that Andrew needs to figure out in his life before we can be us again. I just want to take this time to say I may be sad and miss him terribly and even be really upset about the situation now and again, but I have no hard feeling towards him and I hope you all will do the same. He is an amazing guy, musician, friend, boyfriend, bother, son and person. I hold him very close in my heart and right now he needs happy thoughts being sent his way. This is a hard time for both of us, but with some time and reflection it will make us both stronger people and hopefully in the end strength our relationship. I love him and at this time I have to love him enough to let him go.

So with all that said I guess it is my time to really reflect on myself and where I am in life. I ask for everyone’s help through this time in my life. Sometimes I just lose my way and need that extra nudge to remind me that life has some really beautiful moments too. I am so lucky to have wonderful friends and family who are always there for me. Also, as a recent graduate I am so blessed to have a job in my career field and loving every minute of it. To my coworkers I am so blessed to have you guys and you truly make coming to work everyday a joy. Thanks for all the laughs and good times and to many more to come. Another thing to be happy for is the fact that I have a wonderful one bedroom apartment that I can afford and call home, that in its self is a major feat.

More to come on all this but for now just keep me in your thoughts and Andrew too! We both need it. And in my low moments remind me of some of the great things I have going for me and the bright sunshining future I have ahead.

Never forget…no regrets!

Yours truly,

Katie Lou